Chapter 25.5

Hey Everybody!
It's been a while since I've been on blogger! I was house sitting for 2 weeks in Lotus - thus no internet, so I apologize....also I've been very busy adjusting to life, my new promotion and other things to be mentioned in other blogs!! keep reading!

Anyway, so I was in Lotus for two weeks and with only having work and going up to that house with no internet and barely any cell service, I had a lot of quiet time...which was EXACTLY what I needed! It was like a mini-vacation of sorts! No one knew how to get there or reach me, only me and the dog - and the deer and skunks :) It was nice!
During my time at this cabin of sorts, the election was going on it made me do self evaluations where I was at in life, what I was doing, who I am, how others see me, my impact on the world, my legacy and such. I think everyone should do that from time to time...take good hard looks at who you are, who you want to be, etc... ya know, plan out your game plan or how you're going to keep going toward the person you want to be or need to be. It's healthy!
So in thinking about all of that, there were a few things that were really brought to light and and I'm here now, to share those with you! Some of them will seem strange, but if you know me at all, you know this is only me trying to be a better me and please Jesus.

1. I -- by myself -- am not who I need to be. When you stand me alone, I'm not a complete package...no one is. But how I plan to reach this, is making everything I do, everything I say, everything I come in contact with, more pleasing for the Lord. Some of you Christians will say - "duh!" Ok you're right, this isn't really an enlightenment moment. I did know this already, but I'm making the hardest effort ever to live this through. Now please don't get me wrong, I'm not out intentionally sinning or doing bad things, I just need to take the old saying "hear no evil, see no evil, speak no evil" to a whole new level. I need to make sure what I watch on tv, what I listen to in the car, and what I talk about, is ONLY glorifying the Lord to the MAX. Like I said, I'm not watching shows with tons of cussing or nudity now, nor am I listening to hard core rock and rap with cussing and defacing lyrics, but I need to be watching better shows and listening to even cleaner music. I also don't associate with partiers or cussers or people of no character now, but I'm going to make an even better effort to not just not have those people in my life but to actually have MORE people with charcter and Christ-centered lives in mine. Surround myself with Goodness! Goodness in, Goodness out! That's how I'm going to help myself when I stand alone.

2. I also need to pour more into my family. My attitude towards people beyond my immediate family has been rocky and fair weathered at times. When they were who I thought they should be, I was civil, but when they were doing things I disagreed with and didn't want to associate myself with, then I kept them at arms distance...that's what I do. I distance myself from bad situations so I never get blamed for bad behavior or thrown under the bus by a misunderstanding from someone else. Like them or not or agree with them or not, they're still my family and I've made my mind up to focus of family more...which is why I have all of my family members that are on myspace as my top friends. They're organized from closest in relation to furthest in relation, and brothers and sisters are organized from age! This is the first step to making my life more family focused! I'm sorry to all of the friends from CA to WV who aren't up there anymore. It's just my new outlook on my family. My dad has told me this since high school and I've believed him before but am taking it as a personal motto now, that when all of your friends have come and gone, your family is what remains...your famly is still there. So all you relatives better watch out, I'm gonna be more involved and more interested in your lives!

3. I also have a lot of people in my life from places like high school, church, softball etc... that I never hang out with, and I don't know why, so my third thing I'm going to work on is keeping in better touch with others who are what we like to call "good people" and are people I should keep in better contact with. People like Kristen Winters, Laura Remmington, Chris Stahl, Karen Gatlin, etc... you guys are amazing and I rarely talk to you! Tenaya Tucker, Brittany Smith, Danielle Alexander, Lindsey Mitchell, Jessie Spivey! Look for me to start blowing up your text messaging, phones and myspaces! I can't wait to be better friends to all of you and I'm so sorry we haven't kept in better touch. I've been selfish and lazy!

So with that said, this is a new Chapter of my life. I like to call it Chapter 25.5 :)

I hope this made sense! I had quite the convictions and attitude/mind adjustment while I was up on that mountain haha So please help me by understanding my adjustments! This move is for Jesus and for me. In helping Jesus, it'll help me! I just want to do the right things from now on, not necessarily the easiest ones~!


Love you!
Jeanette