Well lots has occured since I last wrote...lemme update you!
1) I got a promotion and moved to a store that my ex-bestfriend used to work at...yeah more on the "ex-bestfriend" story to come! Basically it was drama for the first 90 days. The first 30 of them were HORRIBLE and I'd never wish them on my worst enemy! I'd never transfered into a store after a change that people hated...I've always been a welcomed breath of fresh air, seeing as how I'm hard working and am a "no fuss no muss" kinda gal! Ya know, a "rules and standards" type! Well unfortunately, that was not the case! My name has never been part of more conversations held behind my back in all my life. The gossip is out of this world and the attitudes are unbelievable. I didn't know grown/young adults could throw such abstact hissyfits.
But there seemed to be a corner that we've turned, whether it's gaining respect or just less rejection I'll never know, but I'm glad I don't dread going into work now...only mildly dislike it.
Which leads me back to the "ex-bestfriend part" - 2) During the first 30 days of working at this store, I found out my ex-bestfriend had made up a lie saying that she had ovarian cancer, had had her ovaries removed, had her eggs frozen so she could have kids one day and that she'd had been going to radiation therapy every monday. - ALL OF WHICH IS A COMPLETE LIE! She went as far as to put bandages on herself to show people, accept flowers as sympathy gestures and sit in spas with people and cry over the fact that her friends too were in similar predicaments. Now - I know I'm probably hashing old stories, but I'm not yet over this! I probably should be, but I can't believe that someone would do this, and then when confronted by her best friend, lie about lying...I mean I can believe it, because it did happen, but I'm STILL hurt. I'm STILL upset that I was lied to. I'm STILL upset that my best friend betrayed my trust which is NOT something I give out to anyone or very quickly at all. - All that to say, I lost a friend in the last three months because I can in NO way have that type of behavior associated to me...I live by a personal honor code of integrity, honesty, and character and I don't need people who have none of those things, in my life.
Which leads me to my next happening - 3)I've reconnected with a college friend and I'm pretty dog gone smitten with him. It's obviously WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY to early to be thinking love and marriage and all that, but the clicking it definitely there. I've always said this, but the man I marry will just get me ya know? Like let me be random, understand that I'm a pretty down chick but get protective sometimes, know when to let me win arguments but know when to stand up for himself - ya know, not let me walk all over him, put me first knowing that when he does, I'll jump to heavens above to do the same and more for him, and will know that be me smothering is just me loving hard! I think I've found that in this guy....like I said, I'm not calling the 8 ball in the corner pocket just yet, but he's got real potential. --->here's the kicker. He's been deployed in Iraq for a week and a half now and is there til September....yeah, a LOT can happen in 7 months. I asked him today if he saw us ever being legit and he said "I'd love to thinks so, but so many things are up in the air in my life right now, so I can't say for sure where I'll stand in 7 months." - my head understood and my heart hates it. He agrees. I can say that I will wait for him to come home, because for me, every day is going to be ground hogs day until September (god I hope not) but for him, he's coming back a changed man having seen things I'll never see in my life time and having lived in a warzone for 7 months. He can't say for certain that anything is going to be certain, so in that regard I understand. So - say a prayer. I miss him!
But in the mean time, maybe my job won't be groundhogs day every day...4) As of yesterday - I had to step down to be a shift supervisor in pay because my store doesn't make enough money to keep me at a salary level. So to save the store and company money, I have to be put on hold until another position in the greater sacramento region opens up, because as of now, there isn't a spot. There's no timeline or explanation of how or when or why, but I'm still the acting ASM and I just don't get paid appropriately! :-/ Gosh it sucks right now, but who knows after a spot becomes available, maybe even at my current store if they make more moeny, it'll be like a breath of fresh air. - Just when I was starting to feel challenged and whatever the opposite of stagnant is, they put the brakes on. My District Manager was amazing in how he delivered the news and how he conveyed how his still my biggest cheerleader and advocate! That was so encouraging to know. But basically it was a huge pride issue having to tell anyone I wasn't the position I'd earned and was capable doing.
Needless to say I've been a vulnerable, emotional, prideful mess. :) The boy's got me feeling feelings I haven't felt in a long time, the jobs got me more insecure and prideful than necessary, and life just has me guessing.
Anyway, if I fell of the face of the earth, that's where I went and why! I missed you all so keep in touch!
